Just wish to say this to someone - Thanks for being honest to me....
but i really feel so tired, as you said, when same channel then talk lo..... until today, i still feel we are wrong channel...
if you feel mad on what i m doing now, please continue... it doesnt matter anymore.
just for your info, i remain quiet but it doesnt mean tat i agree 100% on what you said...
and i m still the one u knew since the 1st day we met, and i will not change because of what you said unless it is right.
my point of view - being as friends, doesnt need to stick around all the time (i agree on that), but it doesnt mean that when see each other also pretend like no see is a good way to treat friend.
So wait i feel we are same channel, or u feel we are same channel then we only talk ba.....

Appreciate what you got and treasure it.... sincerely from me... to every friend of mine....

I think i m too stubborn....
i m a loser.... cannot do what i should do....
why m i so stupid... choose to be sad? and the ppl tat make me sad, stay happy....
worth?
no... not worth
i wan an escape, please let me go~
stop bothering me with their thing... i m tired....
if you wan them to gang with u, go ahead, dun drag me in pls.....
if you wan them to start, go ahead, dun ask me to bcome like, pushing them 2gather....
it's none of my biz....
please leave me alone...........

It's October~

My birthday month~

My sis said october was her lucky month, and yes, when you believe something deeply, it will always become a truth~ she got her promotion as Senior in her company with a shorter period of probation, and as well as salary increment that she never expected. Happy for her~

but for me, october is not my lucky month, obviously~ haha....

this year, been thru so many things.... learnt to be more self protective... learnt to put down something that not belong to me.... learnt to have a better life....

many many things that cannot recall back in a short time... but for sure, now i feel that putting much personal feelings in working environment.. it will just slow down the growing process.... not only to personal, it's also the same to the company....

although i m just an employee... a typical and powerless employee.. but i always do hope the best for the company... and we work the best for company's future... not sure how much the management level can see, but we done our part, and probably the best from us... do hope that they see what we sacrifice for our job~ and pray for the best for our company~

Live simpler, life happier~

~ September 2011 ~

Happy to see my dear at her BIG day!

She was so happy that day, and sincerely i wish you & ah choy live happily ever after!

Love to see you two so sweet~

Oh my dear please remember, put more trust & effort to work for the best future for you both ya~ i will always by ur side when you needed me~ just dont forget me wo~ love ya~

~ October 2011 ~

Time flies....

this month, i waited for so long, for my best friend's wedding~

Congratz to my dear Yen Yee~ happy to see you in your wedding gown, smiling like an angel~ wish happiness always be with u ^^

Sometimes i really wondering, is it my problem or his problem? why should i face such a stubborn ppl? sigh....
i think i m getting high blood pressure everyday!
God, please save me, let his brain open up and understand & rmb what ppl teach him, ok? sigh~

为什么我的泪在流？为什么我那么的不开心？为什么我的心像在淌血？
我们真的不再是一个gang了吗？
是我自己筑起了围墙，还是我们根本就不再是一伙的了。。。
远离吧。。。远离你们。。。或许我的心会不再痛。。。希望吧。。。
坚强吧！爱你自己吧！眼泪不值得为他们而流。。。。。

原来掏心掏肺地对朋友好，到最后，受伤的还是自己，还要被别人说“正所为报应，就比如以后别人用想等的态度对待你，到时别怨天尤人，因为这就是你的报应。。。”！
是你说的，不要要求公平的对待，因为你对人家好，人家未必要对你好，那么现在你说的这一堆废话又是什么呢？
你自己抚心自问，我有对你差吗？是否我就应该被你们冷冷的对待？难道委屈自己陪你们到很多二手烟的地方去喝茶，这也是我们的报应？难道我一直以来的惋惜我们的友情为何走到如此的田地，也只是我自己拿来烦的？如果你觉得我们的报应应该如此，那就算了，做朋友也没有意思了。。。
曾几何时，我也说过，不要再喝茶了，你们有想过我为何那么说吗？我那时的心情何尝不是和你一样？出来喝茶，但一个嘴巴含金，一个恶劣语气，难道这也是报应？你自己有没有反省过为何别人会如此对待你？想想这一切还未发生前你是如何对别人吧。。。
还记得，那天在77，我和你说话，你用那样的语气回答我，我也懒得去生气，懒得去回应你了，不想再伤害我们的友情，但你现在却反过来说“这是我的报应”，很好。。。

"凡是总有正负两面，随着科技的发达，目前的科技可以随时随地的拿起你的手机上网，比起十年前，要上网总是要在电脑面前。。方便的程度，真的十万八千里。爸爸以前总是觉得我们回到家里，“打开电脑，连你爸的名字都不知到时谁” 的态度觉得很懊恼， 我们竟然没放在心里，觉得现在的人就应该是这样。 后来，渐渐的，报应来了，出外喝茶，一些人竟然从一坐下来就拿起他的Iphone, Ipad... I 什么的。完全把身边的人当透明，就连最起码的尊重也没有，跟他说话，看也不看你一眼。 科技的发达，背后隐藏着负面的影响，也许当局人没把现在的危机看出来，正所为报应，就比如以后别人用想等的态度对待你，到时别怨天尤人，因为这就是你的报应。。。 "
WROTE BY ERKANG CHIAN

when u write this, did u ever think wat the cause of we rather play game than talk with u? did u ever think it's how u treat ppl, then how ppl treat u back? as u said, dun ask for fair treat, coz tis world is never fair before? and at ur point of view, u very respect us? when i talk with u & jerry tan, wat response u all gave? rude response! and this is so call how ppl treat u, u treat ppl back the same way? did i ever talk rude with u all? and i should receive this as "BALASAN"????

IF U TWO EVER RESPECT US, WHY WE WANNA TALK WITH U TWO AND U TWO NEVER APPRECIATE? U ALL ONLY LIKE TALK WITH EACH OTHER! AND AS U LIKE, NO MORE YAMCHA SESSION, SINCE U ALL THINK TAT IT'S WAT WE SHOULD RECEIVE FROM U ALL!

最近陆陆续续收到朋友们、姐妹们的好消息，结婚的结婚，买新屋子的买屋子。。
很高兴大家都进入人生的不同的各个阶段，同时也感叹自己还是原地踏步。。。
看着同年龄的姐妹买大屋，凑备人生大事，自己却十划也没有一撇，真愧对自己的人生啊!
心在想为何大家同年，但别人却可以买屋子了、驾美车、到外国旅游、事业有成。。。
真的是时候为自己的未来打算了。。。

It's June... half of 2011 passed.... and still, we achieved nothing...
It's time to plan... it's time to move on...
Looking at my calendar, markers for friend's wedding for year 2011... i know we should move on... to another stage of life...
and we need time, lots of lots of time to plan... hopefully we can make it a.s.a.p...
i was so happy when u told me "yes, we will plan for it!", thank you, my dear~
Glad that we support each others :)

16th May, Monday.... received the bad news once wake up in the morning...

For sure it's a pain loss for uncle... but sincerely i hope he can recover from the pain asap...

Be tough and live his life to the max.... shine himself for his daddy....

we will always support him~~~

I need a green and natural place for me to recharge....

I hate myself full of -ve charges... i need more and more +ve charges!!!

爸，我觉得很累。。。

面对朋友，我不知道谁是真心，谁是假意。。。

是我的问题吗？是我想太多了吗？我很累。。。。

是不是我讨人厌？那我选择离开吧。。。或许会更好。。。

爸，我想你了。。。

suddenly i miss u two....

i miss the time when u two were trainees at here...

miss the time when we go out for lunch, we talk non-stop....

miss the time we hang around...

miss the time when we gossip all thing....

why u two leave me at this place... hahaha

now no1 talk gossip with me, no1 share feeling with me....

when u two wanna join me for lunch again???

miss u two....

谢谢你。。。当我没有人理的时候，是你主动关心我。。。

听我发牢骚，看我无理取闹，费心思开解我。。。

谢谢你在我不知道要如何回家时，载我回家，谢谢你不像别人那样，头也不回的就回家。。。

还陪我吃晚餐，陪我解闷。。。

谢谢你 Fei Gor，你总是那么的好人。。。

有时候，真的觉得人很奇怪。。。

一开始，是基于好奇心还是什么。。。我们会变得无所不谈。。。我们变得很投契。。。

但渐渐。。。又是因为什么。。。我们变得面对面都没有话题？还变得互不关心？

是时间的冲淡吗？是彼此看透了对方吗？是渐渐腻了吗？是贪新厌旧吗？

还是每一段友情都如此吗？

我不明白。。。我怎么想都想不透。。。

Day by day.... i realized i dun like office politics a little by little...

i likes to remain silence in office nowadays... not like wat i used to be....

talk around, jokes around, tease around...

now... i choose silence to be my colleague....

the best colleague of mine... coz it will never betray me, and will never ever hurt my feelings....

but i feel lucky... at least i met one soulmates in this office (or maybe two or three? i dunno...), where they willing to share feelings with me...

Recently there was a lot of good news from my dear friends~~~
Next month, 28th May 2011, Yiing Jia's wedding~
5th June 2011, Yiing Jia's 出嫁天~
11 Sept 2011, Yar Lee's big day~
22 Oct 2011, Yen Yee's wedding~
so happy they all moving on next stage of LIFE~ \(^^)/

我感觉我们俩的距离越来越远，只因为他的手机的出现，而他却不觉得那么一回事，是我的感觉对他来说不再重要，还是他对着我已经是超级腻了？

一年多了。。。依旧怀念你。。。

你的笑，你爱搞笑的动作，你说不准的“广东话”。。。

每每想起。。。还是痛。。。

每每想起。。。还是泪光满眼。。。