我选择不在当天说想你的话。。。不代表我不想你。。。
只是我想将那一份想念放在心里。。。

为什么总在热闹中感到寂寞？

男孩永远不会明白女孩的
我不是一个随便分享心事的人。。。我只会和心灵上有交集的人分享。。。
心灵上的交集。。。不知道别人是怎么看待这种交集。。。
对我而言，表面上很要好的，未必是好朋友。。。
没错,我可以和很多很多的人高谈阔论，别人会看到我和很多人很熟，但并不代表我和每一个人心灵上有交集。。。
那些表面上很熟的“朋友”，我依然称他们为朋友。。。
而和我有心灵交集的，我称他们为知心的朋友。。。
我不介意知心的朋友知道我的缺点，但我介意“朋友”知道。。。也介意知心的朋友在“朋友”面前揭穿我的缺点。。。
因为我相信知心的朋友会接纳我的缺点并且不会以我的缺点来羞辱我。。。
而朋友。。。我有提防之心。。。
或许知心的朋友会觉得我想太多，很复杂。。。
但是有时候人就是这么的复杂。。。

人与人。。。
相处之道，婆说婆有理，公说公有理。。。
不用去介意别人的看法，我只要相信自己。
有时候，无声胜有声。。。

很想很想逃离这里。。。
很想到远方生活。。。
很想尝试一个人的生活。。。
很想抛下这里的一切，从新开始新的人生。。。
不想背负这么多了。。。

有时候真的很讨厌自己
为什么要生气？为什么要伤心？为什么要闷闷不乐？
在他们的眼里，我觉得我是小人。。。在他们眼里，我只是会道三说四。。。
在他们的眼里，我不过是一个解闷的玩具？
在他们的眼里，我究竟是什么。。。。。？
我不开心。。。不是因为公司出现美女。。。
我不会介意他们笑我的样子，但至少不要把我批评到像地底泥一样。。。我也有我的死穴。。。
我知道我不是什么美女，我也不会对着你们撒娇，更不会对你们油腔滑调。。。
但我是我。。。我坚持我是我。。。
我哔哩叭啦是因为我开心。。。
我笑是因为你们陪伴。。。
或许在你们的眼里，我是那么那么的幼稚，一点也不会想。。。
但我保存的赤子之心，你们又何时才会看到？
我会一直一直保护我的幼稚，我的童真。。。因为那是我仅有的一点快乐。。。

有时候。。。真的在想是不是时候放下？
是我太执著？是我太死心眼？是我太贪心？是我想太多？
是不是时候改变一下自己对朋友的看法？
看得太重，反而是自己伤的很重。。。

爸，今天是母亲节。。。
没有你的母亲节是第一次过。。。
下个月的父亲节该如何度过？

不懂为何。。。没有你的日子总是像多了一个空洞的日子。。。
用很多很多的人，很多很多的事物去填补，但那空洞却一直还在。。。
我甚至会有时候不想见任何人，不想面对任何事情。。。
爸，我想你。。。始终说不出口。。。

人。。。总是害怕坦白。。。
人。。。总是会变。。。
人。。。为何总是在伤害着别人而不自觉。。。

我。。。不喜欢被伤害。。。 但我不能保证我没伤害过其他人。。。
我。。。不喜欢改变。。。 但身边的人一个一个地变了。。。 或许变的人是我。。。或许是我自己懵然不知。。。
不开心，不喜欢。。。

当你开始认识新朋友，你是快乐的。。。
当你开始了解他时，你们是相知相惜的。。。
当你把这个人放进心里，心是富裕的，满满的欢欣。。。
当你慢慢地将他在你心里的地位从普通朋友提升至朋友，再从朋友到好朋友，好朋友再升级至好知己。。。这一切，都是发生在不知不觉间。。。或许你会发觉。。。或许你不会。。。 但那确实是发生了的事实。。。没人能磨灭他在你心中的地位。。。
一直。。。一直到。。。被伤害了。。。你才发觉越是重视某某人，越是容易被某某人伤害。。。
即使只是无心的一句话，也可以像一把利刃直插你的心。。。
鲜红的血，就这样流出来。。。

Decided!!!!!
Smile at ppl also no use!!!
from today onwards, no more social!!!
treat ppl as true fren, wat ppl treat u wo? just colleagues lo!!
damn!!
early early morning giv me shit face see!!

~ 温馨的时光 ~

昨天。。。
当我在收拾碗橱时，才发现爸爸的省家本领。。。
看着旧旧的碗橱，钉了一次又一次的板架，抽屉原本的树胶握柄不知道何年被爸爸换上了木制握柄。。。
再看看家里的家具。。。
十年前那青色的冰箱要是还可以用，我想它一定还在我家中。。。
爸妈房里的衣橱，客厅的电视机架，从我旧家用到现在。。。
电视机，即使是遥控坏了，画面模糊，爸爸也依然不舍得浪费钱买新的。。。
一直到姐她帮爸拿了主意，换了一架平面电视。。。
一直到去年，我和姐再换一台LCD电视给他做生日礼物，但爸只看了两个月。。。
遗憾。。。
男朋友笑我没有遗传到爸爸的省家本领。。。我只能淡淡的一笑。。。
思念，总是在不知不觉中侵袭我。。。

夜深了。。。
仿佛在等待。。。等待平时习惯了半夜起床上厕所的爸爸。。。
他总是会叮咛我们不要那么晚睡。。。但是我们总是不爱听他的话。。。
爸爸，我想你了。。。

表面上我们都很好，没有每天以泪洗脸。。。
但是心灵的深处，真正的感受得到失去了一部分。。。
我经常会有所感触地想起你，泪，很自然地流下来。。。
我想妈妈也一定会这样。。。

我不喜欢现在回家的感觉。。。
以前，打开门，摄入眼里的是你和妈妈开心的样子。。。
如今，打开门，感觉到寂寞，是妈妈的寂寞。。。
孩子们的陪伴始终比不上老伴的相伴。。。
心疼妈妈的寂寞，但我却觉得万般的无助。。。
既不能消除妈妈的寂寞，也没办法补救自个儿心灵上的空洞。。。

无助，落寞，彷徨。。。
对不起，妈妈。。。

现在才发现没有一张和爸爸亲密的合照。。。

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye Bye bye Bye bye Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x]) Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

~ Bye Bye by Mariah Carey ~

眼泪就这样流下来。。。

当我看着姐的布落格时，眼泪没有控制地流下。。。

爸，很多很多的话还没说。。。

很多很多的事还没做。。。

我们还要买属于你和妈妈的屋子，让你们能在那儿安享晚年的。。。

我还要考到驾照，载着你们到处去呢。。。

还有您说过要带妈妈坐飞机。。。

现在都变成了遗憾。。。

谢谢您这么多年以来的悉心照顾。。。

谢谢您为家里付出了你的大半生。。。

谢谢您为我们的生命添加无限的欢乐，是您使我们的生命变得彩色。。。

怀念您的一切。。。

怀念当我们看电视时，您总是爱乱转频道。。。

怀念当我回到家时，您总是和妈妈在打电动，而我就是爱唠叨你们：“那么晚了还在玩，不用吃晚餐吗？你们都不饿吗？”。。。

怀念您的碎碎念。。。

怀念您永远都说不准的“科技”。。。

看着你的专用沙发，怀念你的背影。。。怀念你在沙发上打瞌睡的样子。。。怀念你在沙发上看报纸的样子。。。

庆幸您离开前没有饱受病魔的折磨。。。

庆幸您离开时是安祥的容颜。。。

爸，不用牵挂我们。。。我们会好好照顾妈妈的。。。

您放心到另一个快乐美好的国界吧。。。

我们会帮你完成您的心愿。。。带妈妈坐飞机的。。。

爸爸，要一路走好。。。

永远爱您，想您的孩子们。。。

Company Trip For Year 2008

~ Korea @ 2009-12-15 to 2009-12-20 ~

1st Day at Korea, after aboard, we have our 1st Korea breakfast - Udon Noodle at restaurant nearby the airport. It was so cold at Korea, around -8 celcius in the morning. Having this udon noodle, i felt so warm and it was delicious too ^^

~ 1st plate of Kimchi at Korea ~

~ The restaurant ~

~ Nice Udon Noodle ~

and the next stop was seagull watching. Our bus went onboard a big ship and sail around for 10 minutes or maybe less... i was freezing tat time after get out from bus, windy and cold weather, i really cannot stand for it.... tat's y i hav no "mood" to watch the seagulls... i hide inside the cabin more than go outside to blow by the cold wind... but lucky my dear still manage to take some shots of the seagulls...

~ Plenty of seagulls waiting tourists to feed them ~

Then we move on to Greenland Spa for our spa session. Too bad the tour guide only give us around 1-2hrs to enjoy it... there was many choices of spa u may choose, red wine spa, rice wine spa, green tea spa, Jasmine spa... many many of it... The spa place was divided into 3 parts, Women's, Men's and shared. we can only wear swim suit when we at the public spa pools. U may see those womens/girls naked in Women's sauna coz u are not allowed to wear anything in there... and of coz for me, i dare not to go inside Women's sauna... feels so uneasy to see naked strangers walking around... yuck~

~ Greenland Spa ~

Soon after we had our spa, we went to the Lavendar Farm next to the Greenland Spa. The so called lavendar farm was only a small garden will less than 100 pots of plants i guess... tat's why we only can found 1-2 pots of lavendar that is about to die i think, haha~ but anyway the souvenir shop attached to the lavendar farm was nice, plenty of creative souvenir u may get in here...

~ M3, thanks Uncle for helping me to take such a cute face, haha ~

~ Cn, M3 & President, holding...erm... dunno what exactly tat was ~

~ Lavendar that is about to die, hehe ~

~ M3 inside the lavendar farm ~

~ Photo with the Lavendar Farm SignBoard ~

and it's time for eat eat eat... Our 1st dinner is Seafood shabu shabu ~ It was quite nice by having sotong inside the shabu shabu, haha, and also fresh prawns, Yummy~~~

~ Seafood Shabu Shabu ~

and lastly, end of 1st day trip, we checkin to the 1st Hotel, Hotel Daemyung. The hotel is quite big with 2 rooms, 1 toilets. It was like apartment that can fit around 4 ppl, with 1 queen size bed in the master bedroom and mattress in the small room. Many of my colleagues noticed that the soap's brand is LG, the TV, the fridge, the stove are all LG brand... but my room, a bit mixed up, Samsung Tv, LG soap, LG stove and LG fridge... haha~

~ Lepaking around the Hotel, nice xmas deco ~

~ Lepaking around the Hotel, nice xmas deco ~

~ Nice night view from hotel's room ~

Till then, good nite for 1st day in Korea!!!

~ Merry Christmas ~

Back from long holiday mood, today is totally working "mode", with holiday "mood", haha...
This year christmas party will be held on 30th December as my manager has not confirm his flight back from korea...
and me n my dear will be going to cherating on 31st December to celebrate new year with Calynn & Yw...
tommorrow will be updating my blog again for Korea trip~
my 1st post for Korea trip ^.^

~ Happy New Year to everyOne too ~

~ Funny Photo For Christmas ~

很多时候，不需要任何理由或原因，我们就可以会心一笑。。。

很多时候，我们只是需要小小的动作就可以快乐。。。

谢谢你们，在很多时候我需要时都会在我的身旁，小小的一个动作就可以换来快乐的欢笑。。。

很开心拥有你们这班好朋友。。。